Sunday, August 08, 2004
hiya~. im here to blog again... althou im tired :\ due to many objection.. i decided to change the button for my tagboard okays! nvm.. its okay if u guys have the heart to say min min n yida rox(: i know it :x. currently listenin to wo men de ai haiz.. sad soongg. u didnt meant it to be. neither did it. but thats jus fate.. i suppose. __ said i might like them.. but hahah no,not over my foot.

SHE SUCKS

alright. dun be hypocritical.to say sorry. i know u didnt mean it. ur jealousy jus got u here. n u jus.... caused us to suffer. or should i say ur childishness n hatred brought u here as well. was i suppose to be rude? did i have the right to.. ? okays wadeva. in wadeva other words i can describe of u. i can only say.. u suck okays. damn bitch. i guess im gonna blog long today. sad to say... i couldnt control myself today n cried :x i knew....u didnt mean it... i wun let u cry animore..i will catch all de tears u going to drop... i dun blame u..chong na yi tian qi... wo wang ji le hu xi... yan lei ah.. yong yuan bu zai..bu zai ku qi.... im not gonna cry anymore. maybe this will help us better. its against our wills. but we still have to do it.--- to forget it.

How do i tell you --Allie Katlyn Fee

How do I tell you that I miss you?
How do I tell you, you're my everything?
Should I scream it out loud And hope it reaches you?

How can I reach out for you When I need a shoulder to cry on?
How will I be able to stay up all night talking to you
Without being able to look into you're eyes?

How will I survive with this loneliness
When with each passing day, my heart breaks more?
How will I be able to cry from happiness
When all my tears are shed from sadness?

How will I be able to go on
When the one I care about is gone?
How am I going to be strong
When my heart is still in your hands?

you're not here... you're not even close to being near...

Since you've left, I've had this pain in my heart
Kinda like there's something missing.
I lie awake at night
Wondering why I have this sadness staggering over me.

Then I catch myself looking at pictures of you
Dreaming back to when it was just us two
And just like that I realize
Why all my lonely tears have been cried.

And since that moment
Every time I catch myself thinking of you
Missing you Or wishing you were near...

I know the main reason why I'm so lonely
Why I find myself crying over you
Or even why every time the phone rings, I hope it's you...
Is because I really do love and care for you.

Because if I didn't
Would I be sitting here right now thinking of you?...
Wondering, if you had never left
Could I be sitting next to you right now?...

With you looking into my eyes
As I'm looking into yours
Listening to you quietly talk
And possibly holding your hand?

If I didn't, would I be cautious about lookong at other guys?
Cautious, because I know I could never be true no matter how hard I try.
Only because my love for you will always remain in a special place in my heart
And I could never love another the way I love you.

you're not here... you're not even close to being near...

hah.. dun think anyone is gg to survive this long blog..hah.. i also dun hope ppl to survive it. so i'll post longer.anyway thats a poem on top (: YiDA posted it on the forum..n i think tts quite true.. so i pasted it here. erm.. n i dun wish those ones who's readin my blog.. skess okays. (hahz.. cos u all r the only ones who read my blog) to ask abt the things abv okays.althou i didnt mean u all sure will ask. :\ haha.. jus count the times.. we missed. n ended off sadly... how many times of it... maybe.. this shall be the last one... but the sweet memories shall live inside me foreva. the secret deep down in my heart. hah.. tmr.. we were suppose to go out... but instead im going to merlion park deres. heehs. didnt went dere today. maybe jus meet them... n enjoy the breeze.. of the river eh? hahz.wo men de ai... gou le jiu bu zai hui lai... zhi dao xian zai wo hai mo mo de deng dai.. wo men de ai... wo ming bai.. yi bian cheng ni de fu dan...zhi shi yong yuan wo dou fang bu kai..zui hou de wen nuan... ni ge de wen nuan... is dere anithing..i can do.. to let u forget abt me..(: lost... can i help u to find ur way?

- just so beautiful____8/08/2004 01:04:00 AM;