Friday, July 23, 2004
wads wrong with me today. im being so pessimistic. jus felt isnt it better off not to be here. yesterday jus saw many anonymous blog. two of them i read, their friends committed suicide. maybe they just couldnt take the stress. n jus one jump or wad. thats the end of it. no more burdens. there's so many tests recently. n im not even prepared for it. maybe i jus didnt work hard enough. proj. no one has got the motivation to do it. rather do their own stuffs. even if they know that the proj need to be handed up in less than an hours time. forget it. why not say myself before i say others. why didnt i do it, huh? didnt i jus slack along with them. why didnt i motivated everyone. rrly felt like takin the penknife.... but no, i wont. i didnt have the courage to. n i know i shant do it. i jus hope things will get better. today... chi test damn difficult. i just peeked sideway :X n got back 2 compos. so wad if i get good marks for it. r u supposed to be happy when u are writin sad stuffs out n got gd marks? speakin of compo. LOL. we real tengcheong's compo. its damn damn damn MUSHYY!!!!!!!!!! but we still dunno who's e crush of hers. LOl. weehweeeet~ its sth like that :"wei she me shang cang bu neng ran wo men zai yi qi, wei she me wo bu neng zai ta ling zhou qian gen ta shou "wo ai ni" jiu suan shi zou meng, wo ye meng jian wo men yi qi wan zua mi chang" all these. theres still more loh. read till all ur hair stand up ahh. n sya wad. love have me power to stidy hard blahblah. n wad shen mi zhu chen shou fan LOL. must read ah~! hahah me n elx were actin out the little fairytale of his compo out. LOL. maths drew graph .at least this time round its better than e last chapter de. i understand better. (: but thinkin of the maths test on monday.. awwww. forget it. oh yar. n to the one who read my blog pls dun crt the hanyupingying abv okay. i know there will be alot of mistakes. alright. heeh guess today blog also v long bah :\ nvm. in case of grublin by er-hems im gonna end here weeets im gg to see YiDa tmr (:

eight of them. one more lesser. isnt it better?
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why why why. i cant seem to know everything. im jus like a dog. obeyin wad u say. n i dun have the right to knwo wads gg on. okay maybe in the past.. i knew too much. n now i cant even have the right to know anything thats happenin to me. wad i MUST do is "do wat u say" maybe its better off i dont know. but u know de feelin. when u wanted to know somethin but u cant.forget itttt
- just so beautiful____7/23/2004 08:58:00 PM;